Packing@Room

Finally the day is here when we have to pack our stuff and vacate the hostel...... asap

So I started packing yesterday…….but with great difficulty as I was very very lazy to do it and moreover feeling awful of leaving the hostel for the last time….. And thus end of my life as a student (To a great extent…)

1^st of all I was having a phobia against this word “Packing”……. “Sooo much too pack….” Started off quite well……packed 2 suitcases….one trunk in no time….so was really happy….. “Good Start”….but slowly I was losing on the pace as I was really tired and…..didn’t know what next….started again……packed 2 bags, with great difficulty….but nevertheless was happy with the outcome….

Then slowly and gradually as I was putting things in the bags…..I was not able to decide…..what to keep and what to discard…. Thinking that if I discard it now and by chance if I need it in future, I will regret it…..so it was getting really annoying to decide….Acted like a true Libran, very indecisive…..once again…..

It has been almost 8 years since I have been out of home……staying away….so over these years have accumulated so so many possessions…. that its not even funny….All through these 8 years have developed some kind of superstitions with some of the belongings…….but this list of belongings has become too long and heavy…..some things have a great emotional attachment and some I just can’t dispose of for some unknown reason…..just don’t feel like…..

When I have to decide what things I have to discard….. I am finding it terrible…. I just can’t get rid of things….. Many things have a special place in the heart…. Which I just can’t prioritize, this has made my job even tougher….. and if I try to do that I feel guilty of not giving importance to all my possessions…. possessions (include gifts, collectibles etc) How can I throw off some body’s gift or anything which has been given to me with so much love (not sure..), collectibles…which I have collected over the years and kept to great care… Basically it has been a really tough job for me to decide……. So because of the uncertain mental state I have packed almost everything thus making my luggage once again very heavy…

Seriously it is a night mare to make a choice on what to carry physically and what to carry as just memories….