Confused@Reasons

It feels as if I want to be in Bangalore for a few reasons ...and don't want to go back to the Institute for a few reasons...I don't want to stay in Bangalore for a few reasons and want to go back to the campus for a few reasons..... still trying to figure what are the exact reasons...........confused as always....

Thoughts@Day

“We're never so vulnerable than when we trust someone - but paradoxically, if we cannot trust, neither can we find love or joy”

By Anonymous

“The key is to get to know people and trust them to be who they are. Instead, we trust people to be who we want them to be- and when they're not, we cry.”

By Anonymous

"It takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it."

By Anonymous

"Those who trust us educate us."

By Anonymous

"Never trust a man who speaks well of everybody."

By Anonymous

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Yesterday I had gone to attend a family f(x) of my relatives which was held in Ghatkophar … It was the naming ceremony of the new born kid in the family.

I was totally under dressed as I was going for the f(x) directly from the Office. So was already skeptical if I would look out of the place at the f(x). But then I had no option but to go the way I was.

On the way kept looking for a shop where I could buy a gift for the new born. But couldn’t find one and moreover got busy over the phone while in the auto, so couldn’t keep the track of the shops that passed by…So finally decided to give a money envelope.

As soon as I reached the venue I was greeted with surprise from one of my cousins. He was totally shocked to see me there and the next question he asked was “Are you Ghanti or Banti”?

I went in, to meet the bhabhi, the mother of the new born baby and the met 1-2 more relatives. They too had the same question “Are you Ghanti or Banti”? It’s so funny that this is only what they remembered about me. Then went to see the kid and met his father, the bhaiya. And after that moment I started feeling very strange, because relatives I met were gone to welcome others before I could even realize that I have met them.

And everything looked so formal. I went around finding somebody I knew, but couldn’t spot any and felt like a total stranger. Sat on the sofa wondering what to do… Went to munch something as I was starving. But every step I was taking I felt bizarre and very weird. Was just not feeling the part of the f(x). Just not able to relate to people around.

Then suddenly saw a recognizable face, got excited but contemplated 1000 times before I could decide whether to go and say hi to him. But finally when I saw there was no one around him I went and asked “Aapne Mujhe Pehchana Kya” and his instant response was “Of course”. I was totally overwhelmed and surprisingly he knew what I was up to in life as such and didn’t ask the same stupid question “which one are you?”

Chatted with him for a very brief time, he took me to few people whom I already knew and had seen them around but was not at ease to go ahead and speak to them. There too the same query “Are you Ghanti or Banti?” I was like……uffffff….But that is what people remember, as have hardly been in touch with them for years to give them a different perspective about life, beyond the identity part.

But still was not feeling comfy, nothing could make me feel at the place. Went to eat some more food and then decided its better I make a move. Said bye to the uncle who had said “Of Course” and I was off in a flash….

On the exit gate, there was this servant who works at the relative’s place who recognized me, gave a smile…. And he too told the person sitting next to him, “Iske Jaisa Bilkul Ek Aur Hain”….

Reactions@Surprises

Surprise!!!........and reactions are like: Oh Shit, Wow, Oh I can't believe this, Oh no.......... and so on.

Surprises at times are pleasant, at times great and at occasions it can be a disaster.....But we all would want good surprises with a reaction that leaves an expression of shock on one's face....

Yesterday was another such occasion of surprise.... when I landed in Institute to wish a friend on her birthday..... She was totally shocked and her reaction "I can't believe this" ...and burst out into laughter.... and everyone around also where shocked expect AR who knew about it (Thanks AR you made it happen...Love you....). Even I was shocked equally at peoples' reaction.... totally zapped and didn't know how to react...... But overall it was a good fun....

One more incident that comes to my mind is, another friend's birthday, almost a similar situation, landed in the Institute early morning to wish her and her reaction "Is that You...Oh Shit"....

There have been many many other such incidents....right now I can recollect this two...which are the latest ones.....

Its nice to see people react and also feels nice within that one was able to make someone pleasantly happy with the surprise.... Gives a feeling of genuine satisfaction.....hmmmm

Also fun is preparing for these surprises and making sure that surprises remain surprises...

P.S. : Oh remembered another one....reached manipal with friends to meet a friend...reaction: "Oh Shitttttttt"....

@Brindavan Gardens

15 years ago..............when I had visited Brindavan Gardens in Mysore.... as a KID...was totally fascinated..... Vast garden with millions of flowers, innumerable fountains, huge dam, lights, musical fountains. All was really a great experience then......

Recently got a chance to visit this place again.....and got really inquisitive and excited to see the place after 15 years..... I am sure each one of us will get excited to see something after such a long period and a totally different perspective to look at the same thing.....

When I reached the Brindavan Gardens, the 1st thing I did was dropped my luggage in my hotel room, and went for a stroll around the gardens....trying to feel nostalgic, reviewing the changes that the place has gone through....

And was very saddened to see the flowers....there were hardly any compared to the millions then.... I was surprised....a garden of this stature has no flowers; a garden is always known by its flowers..... This led me to talk to one of the caretakers there.......... he told me that though tourists still flock this place like mad....but no one really now takes care of the garden.....there were countless people involved in the upholding the beauty of the place then but today the things have changed...

Then I was curious to see the Dam..... Went to see the Dam...and thought of walking on it.....but thanks to the police ....was not allowed, as visitors are no more allowed to walk on it....

Now I was eagerly waiting for the sun to set, for the dark....when the Garden actually looks the best.....with all the lights..........And surprisingly it hasn't changed much...still the lights made the place look beautiful....all sorts of fountains..... and there was still the same mad rush to see the musical fountain it was 15 years ago..........

One thing for sure, the evening made many ill maintained parts hidden in the darkness.

But it was really nice to be back...............................